so yeah...i'm back...took a while...totaly have a block...can't seem to do anything...but hey, life goes on...
anyway...as i'm totaly old now, i have to decide asap what to do with my life...not sure i like it the way it is now, but on the other hand i can't look back, 'cause it'll only lead me into depresion again...
so yeah...have to give up all the dreams i used to have, and close the door behind me, and move on...
not sure actualy that i can do it...but have to try...

actualy haven't thought about the "thing" for about 3 days...hhmmm...ok...that's good...i guess...though it kinda brings the other "thing" back...why is my life so complicated?!?!?!
why can't i be a normal person with a normal boring life?!?!?
and why do i have to complicate things?....

oh...but i remembert what i need...i need a gay friend...no really...i need a gay friend...so i anyone there is ready to volunteer...though i need it him here in israel...so yeah...contact me

ok...now...i need also someone who can make someone else disapear...so if there's anyone talanted in that area, contact me..

ok...what else...oh...and i also need a real good diet...'cause all this thoughts of the past make go fat...so yeah...if you have a real good diet - contact me...

hhhmmm....wow...i need to take some pills i think....i'm going loko...
anyway...
here's a nice song i happen to be listening now (who turned the TV on?!!??!!?)...anyway...here it goes:


7 Things :
I probably shouldn't say this
But at times I get so scared
When I think about the previous
Relationship we shared

It was awesome but we lost it
It's not possible for me not to care
And now we're standing in the rain
But nothing's ever gonna change
Until you hear, my dear

The 7 things I hate about you!
The 7 things I hate about you, oh you
You're vain, your games, you're insecure
You love me, you like her
You make me laugh, you make me cry
I don't know which side to buy

Your friends, they're jerks
When you act like them, just know it hurts
I wanna be with the one I know
And the 7th thing I hate the most that you do
You make me love you

It's awkward and silent
As I wait for you to say
What I need to hear now
Your sincere apology

When you mean it, I'll believe it
If you text it, I'll delete it
Let's be clear
Oh, I'm not coming back
You're taking 7 steps here

The 7 things I hate about you!
You're vain, your games, you're insecure
You love me, you like her
You make me laugh, you make me cry
I don't know which side to buy

Your friends, they're jerks
When you act like them, just know it hurts
I wanna be with the one I know
And the 7th thing I hate the most that you do
You make me love you

And compared to all the great things
That would take too long to write
I probably should mention the 7 that I like

The 7 things I like about you!
Your hair, your eyes, your old Levi's
When we kiss I'm hypnotized
You make me laugh, you make me cry
But I guess that's both I'll have to buy

Your hands in mine
When we're intertwined, everything's alright
I wanna be with the one I know
And the 7th thing I like most that you do
You make me love you, you do