my all...

and i'm here again
falling on my knees
i'm back to this place
to those endless fields

i'm closing my eyes
and i know it's here
in a moment everything’s gonna change
i know the pain is near

i'm reaching for my glasses
i'm feeling lost again
can't do anything right
losing everything i gain

it's so strange to be here
in a middle of life and death
i don't remember being stuck
in this place, before the emptiness

in a second everything's gonna turn black
i know it today
i've learned to push away the pain
but that's not the way

how am i gonna ever change
i want it to go, leave
it's something i don't want to go through again
i wish you'd believe

so i'm back here again
and i know that it's close
i'll lose the things i'm fighting for
like nothing ever was

i wish i could turn back
run up the stairs
see you with your arm open wide
to be that no one dares

it's knocking on my door
i don't wanna answer
i'll pretend i'm not home
can't live this cancer

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it's to late
it knows me too well
came through a window
won't say farewell

i'm all alone here in the dark
wish someone would come and save me
broken i'm crying again
but it's something that have to be

i'm looking up out searching
trying to see the sun
but there's just no way out
what's done is done

it's funny how it always comes back
and leaves every visit a scratch
i don't think i can hold it anymore
every time breaking the watch

i close my eyes again
thoughts running through my head
and though i know those are lies
i can see my self dead

what if next time you won't come
if i'll break down and cry
and what if you will leave me now
i know that i will die

so now i'm here again, i cry
'cause just in very second
i'll be in this forsaken place
the one i call ‘the end’

i'll open up my eyes again
and find that's it's all a dream
that my reality was never real
i'm lost in an endless stream

no matter how hard i try
there always comes the end
for my dreams and hopes so real
go to God forsaken land

i open now my eyes for truth
i wanna run away from here
to place where i'll be safe from you
leave everything i hold so dear

i will break down if i go
knowing i can't be there
forever on my own and all alone
to leave my soul here i won't dare

and if i think what i've become
i'll never truly know
for all i am is 'cause of you
that's why i can not go

you are my all...